Have you ever thought?
Because I have. Throughout my entire fifteen years being on the same roof with her, I've never seen her as hopeless as the situation she is in now. Trust me, never. She probably dehydrated because she was abandoned. In fact, I think I failed asking her whether she was alright. Somebody should just bring her to the toilet eventhough she kept rejecting your offers. This is crazy, I've never seen her drinking so much of fizzy drinks. She is not that type of person. Maybe someone could have introduce the drinks to her and keep on offering it to her. She was psychoed, can't you tell? She can't take fizzy drinks too much and she is old. It's not good for her. I can't believe you don't know all these simple simple things. Want to die isit? have you lived for a long time? Ugh!
Are you panick?
Because I'm not. You should be calm and let one person talk instead of rushing your words and interrupting the person talking. And by panicking, you are just making the whole godamn situation even worst! You will never know if the old fella is afraid or she could faint that instant after hearing that she needs to be sent to the hospital. The doctor knows what he is doing. For goodness sake, they are doctors! They're brains can totally think! So are you the doctor or is the doctor the doctor here ha?
Don't you feel annoyed having so many people cramped in a room?
Because I do. I might not be in the scene at that time but I can imagine. The old fella might have difficulties breathing due to the large crowd around her. I totally make sense here becasue isn't this common sense to everybody on earth? Well, I think it is. Only adults or the closest person should be having one-to-one conversation with the doctor to discuss the finale and not, again, getting panicked.
Isn't it easier to say than do?
Because it isn't for me. According to studies, majority are definately saying more than they do it. (Go and find the sources yourself) I really don't understand why some people say things like as if they are so smart, so educated, so matured, so filthy rich, so whatever-you-can-think-of. So irritating, I can't take it! It's easy for you to say lah, send her to this hospital, to that hospital but who is going to pay? Who is going to run the errands? Have you decided? Have you thought of it? Have you think thoroughly? By saying all these, you are telling me that your decision is final and everybody is agreeable to it. But NO, that is not it. And another thing, you might have fought for yourself but it isn't the same to everyone else. There is this thing called, differences.
Isn't this too sick for you?
Because it is for me. I am tired hearing these bullshits coming one by one, day by day. I tried to be neutral in some situations, i really tried but if it's too much, I just can't. As much as I love this very big and united(I think) family, I'm very dissapointed for the actions you did and the words you say. Despite the fact that she is lying on the bed hopelessly, some people still have the nerve to argue and talk back. I shouldn't have think so high of some of your bullshit behaviours because apparently, it upsets me in the end. Some of you are TOO noisy and annoying. Sometimes, you get excited at the wrong time.
I'm expecting that there should be comments after publishing this entry after afew hours or so but it doesn't matter. This does not reflect what type of person I am or rather how my parents bring me up. I may be just 15 years old, but I have the right to share what I feel and how I wish I could talk to someone about this. 15 is rather a young age but age doesn't matter, does it? Afterall, it's your maturity and if I don't say these, all of you won't EVER realised your wrongs. In any case, I'm sorry if I've failed as a grandaughter, if I've failed to take good care of her. Too bad, nobody's perfect. I'm always trying harder to be a better person. So should you guys. I've cried enough. Whenever I pray, I'll always pray for good health and forgive the bad needs for all of you. God answered my prayers, so I couldn't ask for more. I'm thankful already.
I do not need a reason to be angry with God for all the challenges HE had put me through because HE knows me the best for I am stronger than this. Nenek, you are amazing and I know you're strong. You can pull it through and you will definately get well soon.
